The Jasons...

There are the two Jasons in my life.

With one Jason, I do process groups, education groups, AA meetings, Gay-A Meetings, breakfasts, lunches, dinners, trips to the pharmacy, waiting rooms for various medical appointments, and almost all of my extra-curricular sober fun... This is every single day (including weekends). It's safe to say, if I'm out of my house, I am with him. And if we're not together, we are txt'ing eachother from our meetings or calling eachother after every appointment and keeping eacother up-to-date. It's also common for us to get little comments like "Can't you guys do anything without eachother?", or have our counselors and nurses administering our meds mix our names up (we look nothing alike). We also bicker a ton; usually about things like who could out-drink who, who works 'a better program', which meetings are fun, who is sicker, etc.

The other Jason is my roomate and one of my closest friends over this last year. The way it used to work, and untill these last couple of months, was that I spent almost all of my time with him every weekend. Recently I've been home a lot more, so as my roomate, we spend even more time together (now begrudgingly). This Jason and I are known for our sometimes frequent knock-down, full-on, fights. We are also both known for our early bedtimes while watching movies on weekends, reading his magazines in silence around our kitchen table, and our hanging-out and bonding in the relatively early morning (though that hasn't happened in a while). Our friendship, when good, is very affectionate and sweet, and to be honest with you, I have a hard time being either of those things so I can really appreciate that. In summary, he is both one of my favorite people and sometimes also far from it, but there is no question that I love this one.

That barely scratches the surface of either of these boys. But there's your brief description of two of my most important relationships presently, which just begged to be described.

When Home Feels Like Home...

I feel overjoyed...

About Me and You / After All These Years (AA or Love?)

Before, I felt like I lived in a world I was merely in and not of, and I just don't feel that way anymore.

And what I want to know is, now that we're finally past what will be known as the beginning of our acquaintance... What comes next?

So much continues to come full-circle, it's as if my soul is caught in a tornado.

I'm dizzy... I surrendered 2 months ago.
I'm exhausted... constantly finding people to take your place.
I'm stricken... you fill in this blank.

Hurry up

You're the only option that makes sense to me.

I lied, I don't mind waiting...