Ramblings...

Our conversation last night left me really disgruntled.

Must I entertain the possibility that it's completely the wrong message to tell you that you always have an open ear when you call or an open door into a lifelong friendship with me? Should I have been colder and never have reminded you how much you meant to me? Told you that I don't want you as a friend? Let you feel like I never cared and that you were lost in your own emotion?

Does that hurt you to hear?

Just like always, I bend to your circumstances... let you prioritize work, school, or your general state of mind, over me. I allow you to come and go and call when you please... let you say goodbye only on your terms.

But, you're gonna have to really understand me when I say it's time for me to prioritize my emotional state and my life. I'm amending my treaty with you and letting you know, right now, that if you call me again, you will need to be ready for friendship and only friendship. Do not hang up on me and do not overlook my honesty, my willingness to be candid with you, and kindness...

And on top of that, I'm bringing a fresh new element into play that might jar you... and it's my firmness in this decision. Our relationship has run it's course.